29.11.03

so, i'm 23 and staring 24 dead in the face.

why do i feel like i'm going to flich first?

my mom told me i'm in this girls' life because what i've gone through in my life; i can sense when things are wrong (for the most part; let's not be overly pretentious here). God says i'm here to showme how much He'll let me lean on Him. but i've got to be honest: it gets pretty difficult at times. josh and i had a talk about personality traits. more specifically, how we often misuse the word "attractive." i said that it should only apply to the whole package of a person. words like "cute" are used to describe physical traits, and the word "engaging" should be applied to the actual personality of a person. i got to thinking, what exactly engages me about her? then the Spirit corrected me. it's not about me. God has allowed me blessed fleeting moments of clarity where i see her as she will be. shining strength, reflecting the loving, caring nature of Christ. a perfect counter-balance to my personality. once the veil is lifted, and she's found her peace with God, it will be well with her soul. and mine. but until then, i will keep crying out to my Hope and my Salvation, hiding my self in His lovingkindness.

Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why do you moan within me? Hope in God; for I still praise Him, the salvation of my face, and my God. Jehovah is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? Jehovah is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Jehovah is the portion of my inheritance, and of my cup; You shall uphold my lot. The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; yea, I have a beautiful inheritance. I will bless Jehovah, who has given me wisdom; my heart also instructs me in the nights. I have set Jehovah always before Me; because He is at My right hand, I shall not be moved. Therefore My heart is glad, and My glory rejoices; My flesh also shall rest in hope;
(Psa 43:5, Psa 27:1, Psa 16:5-9 MKJV)

pax domini, and sleep well.

posted by Aaron on 12:44:32 AM

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26.11.03

And Stephen, full of faith and power, did great wonders and miracles among the people.
(Act 6:8 MKJV)

And looking intently at him. all those sitting in the sanhedrin saw his face as if it were the face of an angel.
(Act 6:15 MKJV)

And hearing these things, they were cut to their hearts. And they gnashed on him with their teeth. But being full of the Holy Spirit, looking up intently into Heaven, he saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God. And he said, Behold, I see Heaven opened and the Son of Man standing on the right hand of God.
(Act 7:54-56 MKJV)

And they stoned Stephen, who was calling on God and saying, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit. And kneeling down, he cried with a loud voice, Lord, do not lay this sin to their charge. And when he had said this, he fell asleep.
(Act 7:59-60 MKJV)


What other than a passionate love and devotion could give Stephen the strength and compassion that he here possesses? "Do not lay this sin to their charge." how much could we accomplish should we decide that phrase be our call? a right heart and spirit toward God and the love of Christ overflowing our hearts. fogiveness follows.

posted by Aaron on 11:01:36 AM

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24.11.03

ever notice how you sit down with a head full of ideas, but when the computer finally boots and you finally get to the blog screen, ideas vanish? like roaches under the glare of a kitchen light.

When a man he serves the Lord, it makes his life worthwhile.
Man gotta choose before God can set him free.
--Bob Dylan

posted by Aaron on 6:06:35 PM

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21.4.03

For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate. But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good. So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not. For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. I find then the principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good. For I joyfully concur with the law of God in the inner man, but I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin which is in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?
(Rom 7:14-24 NASB)

posted by Aaron on 10:31:07 AM

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16.4.03

Which John Cusack Are You?

as if i needed to hear this again...

so what's up? been gone a while. built a studio. making rock music. the devil still hates me and Jesus still loves me. still lifted up by grace and laid low by mercy. still wishing God would visibly sit Himself down next to me, grab my ear like a disapproving grandmother and talk to me.

how are you?

You're a handsome devil...what's you're name?

i may be rob gordon, but in my head i'm martin blank.

pax domini, children.

posted by Aaron on 12:23:43 AM

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